*sigh* lots of stuff happening... dunno whether i'll be able to remember watever i wanna type out... first of all, the news that struck me the most: trina leaving?!! cannot!!! seems like all my frens leaving singapore... feel very sad... gonna cry...

another news: again rumours of energy splitting up for real... i dunno wat 2 believe anymore, i'm really tired of all this... if they wanna split up, then juz let them come out in the open, dun 躲躲藏藏 behind all the media... if they're not splitting up, then can they juz get back together and get on with it? i'm really really sick of it... look at mango, she's already like given up liao... i dun wanna give up still... i still believe there's hope for energy... hope a miracle will happen...

*sarcastically* oh yippee, oh happy day, god is good amen... i got fever on national day... felt soooo weak, and almost couldn't enjoy my bday feast that my mom whipped up and my dear brother got his finger poked by a prawn (dun ask me y) while peeling it... funny, i always celebrate my bday on national day, maybe cos they're so close, the dates... i saw the doctor today, thankfully it's not sars... haha...

the day before was the day of the funfair... i saw the guy who looked like toro and also alex!! and i also saw the jerk (my ex) there too, UNFORTUNATELY... anyway, i walked arnd w/ alex and wanyu (a bball fren of mine) but i only talked to wanyu and alex only talked to her too... so we din talk to each other... *sigh* i feel so pathetic... and i think something's up that ashley, xiaomei and diana (another 3 bball frens) know that they aren't telling me... something that concerns alex... cos i was walking behind xiaomei and ashley and xiaomei suddenly asked 'does she know?' and ashley and her started whispering in front of me... i kept asking wat were they talking abt but they juz ignored me... i hate it when ppl do that! i asked ashley again and she kinda hesitated b4 saying 'huh? oh nothing... u know that alex is indonesian rite?' it was so obvious she made that up! and later, diana suddenly told me out of the blue that i shld give up liking alex... i was like 'why'? and she ALSO hesitated b4 making up some lame reason like cos i'm too shy to talk to him and stuff... like i dunno that myself... i'm guessing maybe alex likes wanyu or wanyu likes alex, i dunno... watever, if they wanna be together, i'm not stopping them... no guy ever likes me anyway (except 4 jerk and i never ever wanna have the experience of having a stead like him ever again)... i'm juz sooo SAD...

the toro-looking guy is soooo good-looking! and the funniest thing is, he's diana's ex-classmate! frm primary sch i mean... so yeah... but she told me his character kinda sux, so i dun think i shall like him afterall, altho he DOES look like toro a whole lot... :p

i saw the jerk while i was walking past the hall... he was standing outside w/ a whole bunch of frens... altho we 明明 saw each other, i pretended i din c him... he went to our stall later and xq purposely said to her fren 'hey, this is my fren. he's a GAY.' she shldn't have done that, cos today, during tuition, he suddenly treated her like his new best fren like i told her he would. he kept calling her 姐妹 and changed it to 'mummy' later... wat a freak... she was doing henna tattoos for me and han ee in tuition and he also wanted one but she refused to... so he kept saying 'mummy, wat u doing? mummy, dun make cake lah...' and i was like 'wat the hell???' how old does he think he is anyway???? he disgusts me...