today was the day of the autograph session! but there were lots of sad things and happy things and juz plain weird things that happened, so i'll juz say them all here at once.

i think i quarrelled w/ trina today over the tgif tix and i feel REALLY bad. even tho jin (the girl in white who was w/ me when i was talking to trina and huiwen) told me not to b frens w/ trina again after the quarrel, i still wanna keep her as a fren. i dun wanna say wat happen in the argument, think i dun wanna talk abt it anymore, but i still wanna say all these. trina, read this ah:

i admit i was quite angry that u wanted to sell me the tix, but then, i dinnoe the whole truth at that time. right now, i really dun wanna take sides. i feel that huiwen has her reasons and u also already told me urs. i think that u both have a point, that's y i dun wanna take sides. i can't help feeling that i was the one who made u n huiwen split up. i'm really sorry. no matter how much rachel tells me that it's not my fault, in my heart, i still believe it is. so, i wanna say that i'm very sorry. apologies may not be good or sincere enough but that's all i can offer. and also, i actually wanted to call u, but i dun think i have the time this whole week cos of energy, so i wanted u 2 read this so u know how i feel b4 i find time to talk things out w/ u. hope we can still b frens! and btw, ur skirt n ur vcds w/ me so u cannot 绝交 w/ me! hahaha, i 贱 rite? :P

when i went up the stage, first person i saw was ahdi. he only looked up briefly and smiled at me. but i think his tan is very nice! really suits him... :P then next was shuwei. he looked up, smiled and said hello to me, then lowered his head again. then he look up again and smiled at me again. SO CUTE!! then is milk/ he really damn shuai sia!! can't stand it... and he talk so much to jin (cos she in front of me) that by the time my turn, he got nothing to say to me liao... so in the end, we juz kept smiling foolishly at each other. in fact, i was smiling foolishly thruout the whole thing lah! i was juz too nervous! all the words that i wanted to say to them b4 i immediately forgot when i came in front of ahdi. kunda i got nothing much to say. he looked at me and gave me a tiny smile and that's all, haiz....

the weird and SERIOUSLY freaky thing that happened was there was this fat guy in front of jin and i. he was so disgusting, kept scratching and scratching his head until me and jin were like wanna throw up, dun wanna throw up liddat. then there was this red-shirt girl beside me (her fren looks uncannily like my primary sch fren, even the name also almost like, but is not, so scary rite?), she also very disgusted, so the 3 of us kept laughing everytime he scratch his head. then he turned around and actually gave me this DISGUSTING smile!!! i was like 'BLECHH!!!!' does he think he's some kinda hot stud?!! omigod, and the worst thing was, he did it like 3 times!!! i was ready to kill myself man... not only that, he also SNORTS. HE SNORTS!!! how gross is that?! and when energy came, he shouted 'energy!!!!' really loudly, is not high-pitched, is juz damn loud, and in my ears summore... i was so fed up i kept turning arnd and shouting 'shut the fuck up!!' but he wouldn't listen! and other ppl were also yelling 4 him to shaddap. there was this guy who even said '你最好闭嘴,不然有人来奏你不是我的事!' hahaha, so funny... but it was a gross experience. NEVER EVER wanna go thru that again!