ok, i start frm friday... i went to airport at like 10am and sit there and study the whole time, wait for toro and wilber to come... then jin tell me she'll be there b4 11:30 (the flight lands at 11:50) and i was like abit angry but i said ok... i can't stand it... i always try to help the others in like coming early even tho is really inconvenient 4 me, but i get nothing in return... quite pissed off actually... so anyway, jin din even reach by 11:30, she was late... and she din even say sorry lor... i tell u, NEXT TIME, i come late i'll make sure she doesn't scream at me... i'll MAKE SURE she's earlier than me... i come so early juz for her own good and not for mine, wat the hell do i get?? nothing!!

then wilber come out first... at first everyone was like screaming and i was like huh?? cos i can't see anything at all, the glass so reflective... then i realise that is wilber... then i was like orh... not much reaction lah... then toro come out, he wear this lite khaki coloured leather jacket and a white shirt and he danced down the stairs, so cute... haha... then he talk to wilber talk until like very happy liddat... i think he long time no see his fren of cos so happy lah, haha... then they both walked out together and i stretched out my hand to call them... toro din really see me, he walk past me... :( my 老公 leh!! i was so sad lor... then i wanted to shake wilber's hand, cos he shook the ppl b4 me their hands... i think he wanted to shake mine also, but the 工作人员 pull him away, so he juz say hello to me and smile... dun really feel anything lah, altho i think i'm supposed to be happy...

later outside their van there, i was standing beside and everytime toro look my way i'll wave madly... wilber's van was in front of his... but i think the fans this time really too much, they couldn't even close the back door... u know the one where have to lift up instead of slide open? wilber's van only got abit difficulty cos the next time i looked (all my attention was on toro's van), will's van gone liao... then in toro's van, the security guards were like screaming at the fans not to bang on the window... i never ah! even tho i stand beside, i only juz stand there and watch only... haha... abit 白痴 but that's me... :P then got one time the security guard inside slide open the door then accidentally kiap this little girl standing in the way, he din even say sorry! he juz shouted at her to get out of the way... i was very angry, cos she's only a small girl and he was the one who kinda "injured" her... she wasn't injured lah, juz surprised, that's all... and jin almost got pushed into the van cos she was standing behind the van, where the door has to be pushed down to be able to close... then it couldn't be closed, cos everyone was standing under it and they were all pushing and she almost fell in... we were laughing abt it later, and she acted out the scenario if she got pushed in:

jin: eh! dun push! dun push lah! *falls into the van* eh hi toro! *waves*

haha... i think is very funny... anyway, toro was sitting at the back, that's y got so big crowd at the back... i was more towards the front... then later jason squeezed past me to get into the van... i even had to make way for him... it's like we're already touching each other, that's how close we were... then i really wanted to tap him on the shoulder and when he turn around... *ARBISH* wahahahaha... but i never, cos i'm so kind...

this time got artistes come to sg i go and 追 them rite, everything's like so screwed! makes me feel so discouraged and dun feel like chasing stars anymore... cos later i TOOK BUS to their hotel to wait for toro to come out... haha, funny rite? other ppl take minibus or taxi, i take bus, but i still reach there b4 he come out... then we wait outside for some time and it was quite quiet... then suddenly someone came out! it's michael frm shin! then we all O.O and juz stare at him... i'm serious, the whole place was so quiet and everyone juz STARE... then i think michael found it very funny and he suddenly start waving to everyone and saying 'hello! hello!' then we all like wake up liddat and start saying 'hello!' haha, so funny... then he got into the van and they juz drove off... i tell u, i wish i looked at where the van went lor... cos now i think abt it, cannot be he one person get into such a big minivan go off rite? there was only one 工作人员 accompanying him leh! i was guessing maybe they drive back into the carpark and pick the others up... argh... after he left i turned away liao... *sigh* then later all the dancers and other 工作人员 came out and got into the bus and van and they drove off then the hotel ppl tell us to go home, cos toro they all all left by the back liao... then we were all like WAT?! cos actually trina they all wanted to wait at the back one, they guessed they would leave by the back, but then they see the van in front so they thot it wld be in front... everyone was so disappointed lor...

i managed to get free tix to go shin concert that nite and went there w/ guihe and her frens... i met them at heeren and took taxi frm there... there were 5 of us so we split up, me n guihe in one car, her frens in another... then i tell u!! the taxi driver so freaky lor!! after 10 minutes rite, i realised we were only at bugis suntec there leh! then the bill already $4.50! so i told guihe something wrong... and we were very scared and abit angry that he took us one big round... then i ask the uncle whether he know we're supposed to go indoor stadium anot... then he din answer, so i kept asking... then i asked him to drop us off in front and HE REFUSED TO!! i tell u, i was so scared i was stuck w/ a psycho taxi driver! then i kinda started shouting at him, ask him y he take us one big round, then refuse to let us get off... then he took this machine and put at his throat, then it make a buzzing sound so he can talk... he's actually that kind cannot talk one... he tried to say something but i couldn't really understand cos the buzzing noise very loud, but the gist of it is he wanted to take us on a shorter route cos got traffic jam, or something like that... but it wasn't shorter at all lor, cos our frens already reach there faster than us and already getting very close to 8pm liao... so we decided to give him a chance, ask him to get us there by 7:45pm.. then i think he very scared of us liao, cos he really SPEED man... the car go VERY fast... at the end of this experience, i feel kinda bad that i shouted at him but i feel that if he's handicapped, he shldn't work as a taxi driver, cos u noe, basic stuff is muz be able 2 communicate w/ the passenger... but i still feel really bad so i apologised...

at the concert, my seats weren't as good as jin's... u know her one is actually jingfen's cousin got for her? cos jingfen's cousin knows michael frm shin... then u know how their grp managed to get in? thru backstage leh! wah lau... and michael even came out to talk to them for awhile... but they din see toro lah... i felt quite hurt that jingfen din get those tix for me... haiz, i dun think they really like me, i not sure, juz have this feeling lor... cos later...

ARGH!!!! I MUZ INTERRUPT TO SAY SOMETHING!!! happy sunday got toro now and my stupid brother dun let me watch!!! wah lau... i dun even know when's the rpt...

ok anyway, cos later jenny din tell me to come early then... i think i shall stop complaining here lah... my whole entry is full of 委屈... i can't wait to go offline so i can juz 哭个够... i feel that toro and i... 一点缘分都没有... i suddenly keep asking myself 追星 all this, 值得吗? i mean like, in the end, i'm still alone... i'm so full or self-pity now it's disgusting...

at the shin concert, toro sang a song w/ xiezhi, a jap song, and also a song he wrote for r&b, called 接力赛... then i started crying, even tho he tell us he won't cry... then after the song finish and he went backstage i stopped crying, cos i thot he won't come back... but later the starting of the next song really gave me a big shock... is 无懈可击!!! and he dance and sang it all alone, and even changed the part 'say energy' to dunno wat... doesn't he feel lonely?

btw, i saw mango n ah sa le! mango, ah sa, rmb ur senior li pei call u? yah, i was the girl standing beside her (or issit in front? i think is in front), wear the orange bag one, then dark blue t-shirt... :P