haiz... energy going to have concert at nyp... how? i wanna get tix, but it's impossible... ok, not impossible, but w/ the niaos as my frens, it's really impossible... they dun wanna go for the tour, dun wanna play the games to get the points, everything also dun want... sometimes i really think that going out w/ them is so boring... they dun wanna try anything, and all we ever do when we get together is juz SLACK... which is so boring... when i asked them wat they did at the sp open house, ask whether they find the innovex boring as well, xq said "huh? innovex? orh, we din go and see that... we juz anyhow walk around" and i'm like, wat do they do then? go open house dun wanna see the things they have there, then go for wat? realise that i'm getting really pissed w/ them and issit for stupid reasons? or do i really have reason to be angry at them? tell me... and i compared wat they did at the open house and wat i did at the open house, and i found that wat the me and cheryl did was much more fulfilling than wat they did... and they have 4 ppl together and they can't even have fun? well actually, i suppose they have fun in their own way ba, but wat's so fun abt slacking? i dun understand... i prefer my time to be well-spent... haiz... wat's wrong w/ me? why do i keep finding them so irritating now? and worse still is that, they always ask me go out at the wrong time, i always have something on or i've promised another fren that i'll go out w/ her... and it juz so happens that everytime they ask me go out on that particular day, i've already promised the exact same person that i'll go out w/ her already, which is pearlyn... then they'll think that i abandon them for pearlyn and i never... in fact, i seldom go out w/ her too, and is always so coincidental that when i finally get to go out w/ pearlyn, the niaos want me to go out w/ them too... and i told myself that i can't pang seh other ppl juz to go out w/ the niaos... bcos liddat then i'll have no life other than them rite? but since i dun wanna pang seh my other frens, my relationship w/ the niaos suffer... and seriously, i've found that it's very stressful to be in the niaos... if i tell them i can't go out w/ them, they'll be like "oh. ok" and they keep quiet... and they pretend they're ok w/ it, but it's so obvious they're not, and they keep on pretending and ARGH! i wanna die... u guys know i'm trying to get at? aren't all friendships supposed to be like so carefree and FUN? i can't even tell them how i feel cos they juz 敷衍 over it like it's no big deal, but later they discuss it behind my back... i know it... cos the last time they did it and came together to thrash me and i was hurt, but i have to pretend i'm not and pretend that i can change... oh god... i'm going to cry... shit shit shit... btr change topic... once i start on this, i can't stop...

well, today at dome quite fun lah... talked quite alot to amin, that asst manager that i say very shuai one? yah, he super funny can? and i found out he got gf, hahaha... dun get the wrong idea ah, i only think he's shuai, i dun want to be his gf or anything... *shivers* he abit scary one, cos he got his "gang", hahaa... all ride bikes one, know wat i mean? but he's fun to talk to, keep suaning me, say how come my name angel, not cupid? like i'm supposed to know... -_-" work for 7hrs today... can say very tired, but at least it took my mind off the energy nyp thingy... and i work w/ that weird weird guy that jasmine and i saw that day we come for interview... the one w/ the deformity... hahaha... his ear like, i dunno lah, it's juz WEIRD! and... my impression of him still haven't change frm the first time i saw him, he's PSYCHO!! *shudders* sings to himself and all that... eeyer!!

was watching my tape of wqyl and i realised that frm far, ben B.A.D looks like edward scissorhands! wahahaha... but well, that pic doesn't really look like lah... but still... :D actually, i never really notice ben until i met someone... then i thot that someone really look like ben, that's y i started to like ben... but now i hate that someone, but i still like ben... ^_^ am i making sense? dun think so... *shrugs* oh well... feel emotional today anyway...