oh, i'm kinda happy... cos when i signed up for the jap class rite, they made me join the japanese cultural society (jcs)... so i juz join lor, since it's free... then they made me put down my interests, so i put singing, dancing and i dunno wat else... watever appealed to me i guess... then on the 15th, i got a letter from the jcs, asking me to go for an audition for the jcs choir! i was like so surprised, but i'm kinda happy too... cos i juz love singing in a choir... i feel so happy like singing in a big group of ppl... know wat i mean? juz puts a smile on my face lah... :D told pearlyn abt it and she was like "maybe u'll have to sing jap songs in the choir" and i was like "hmmm, yah, maybe!" but i dun care, cos i love singing in a choir! hahahaha... i'm repeating myself... :P

so while i was on the phone w/ pearlyn, i talked a whole load w/ her abt the niaos, how i feel abt them and all... i'm supposed to feel btr rite? cos i shared my problems and all... but i think it only makes things worse, cos it brings up all the unhappiness again... so i think it was a wrong decision to talk abt the niaos w/ her... but i'm really thankful for her lah, cos she's very understanding and all... and she also "release" me on results day, which i'll explain in the next paragraph... so all i wanna say is, i'm really grateful that i have someone who can listen to me complain abt everything in general... thanks pearlyn!

ok, cos o level results coming out rite? so regarding plans for that day, xiaomei was the first one to "book" me to go out on that day, and i agreed... not that i dun wanna go out w/ the bball family, i'd LOVE to! cos lao ge's coming back! and lao ge also contacted me, which i'm so happy abt... i was practically smiling the whole day cos i've missed her so much, and i'm dying for her to come back cos i've LOADS to tell her... so anyway... i'm afraid the niaos will ask me out on that day (and they probably will, believe me), and i've to turn them down AGAIN... and i'm afraid that if i dun go out w/ them, they'll like talk behind my back AGAIN... cos the last time it happened, i had a thrashing, and it was TERRIBLE... pearlyn told me that beak also felt very sad for me when she saw me being thrashed, so i'm kinda touched... i'm closest to beak in the niaos anyway... so yeah... oh great, i've juz gotten myself into a funk that i can't get out of... wat a great way to spoil my otherwise good mood...

oh no, it wasn't that good to start out w/ anyway... cos i watched that wqyl episode w/ toro, zhang shaohan and a-wei in it and.... IT HAPPENED AGAIN!! told o.p and huiyu before lah, but shall say again... toro acted super shy, and he's like... >_< i can't make myself go on any more! suffice it to say that i'm feeling terrible now... *sigh*