omg... am so shocked i have nothing to say... that girl frm my tuition, whose name i until now still dunno how to pronounce, that phyu something something one... she's zihui's stead!!! omg!!!! that phyu whoever is an act-bung-buay-bung girl lor! last time in tuition me and hanee and xq always laughing at her, cos her jeans too short, always show her socks, so CMI... oh man.........

and anyway, i'm getting more and more stressed over sch... i dun think i've had so many stuff to do in such a long time ba? and i've got a useless media and society tcher who only told us wat to do for our project in the 3rd week of sch... next week have to hand in our prject topics for both individual and grp liao... then still got 4 marketing journals which i dun have a clue wat to write on... then there's my graphics design fundamentals logo which ms chua says the ball looks like a bomb... GREAT...

die, i feel like crying now... not bcos of work, but bcos of frens... why do i always cry over my frens? think i'm becoming too stressed, one moment happy like shit, one moment sad like shit... en showed me wat shan did for her bday (btw, HAPPY BDAY EN!!!) and it was really very sweet... and juz nice b4 that, i was reading xq's LJ and i was very hurt... it feels like i'm not a part of the niaos anymore... look at this...

excerpt frm xq's LJ:
in my secluded lil shoe box.
listening to the tape for sep 22'03.
my heart overflowed with tears.
it hurts.
i miss all of you.
this tape makes me cry! shit u!
i dont care how lousy u feel-
u just occuppied a room in my 5 star hotel heart.
i really miss all of you.

i did a test.
beak - i cared most for
hanee - understands me most
jinleen - my lucky star

i dont care if u all turn insane.
i dont care if u all are studying in the west and me in the est.
i dont care if its three years.
i dont care if you've gt other frens in sch.
i just miss all of u .
and i believe id always do.

haiz.. ='( can we take a picture of all of us?
so i can put it in my wallet to look at it.haiz...

MISS U -
ive gt an idea...can print it as poster nt?
then can put in my room
ha!

urgh...missing hurts la...damn it
luv,eXque

beak, hanee, jinleen..... whose name missing? mine... i really feel like i'm not part of the niaos anymore... i saw xq on friday in the sch library and i was really very overjoyed to see her... is really very very happy, u dunno how happy i was... cos i haven't seen her in ages and (DIE, tears are flooding my eyes now...) i was really dying to see her... and she didn't seem that overjoyed to see me... ok, to give her credit, she called me when i was in the library but i didn't hear her, then she called my hp but i didn't hear also... but when i finally saw her, i was so happy... i dunno where am i going w/ this, someone juz kill me and be done w/ it... i really miss the niaos but i can't go back to wat it was like b4... i can't keep kidding myself... i'm unofficially out of the niaos...