I've been keeping this blog purely for the sake of letting my friends know what's going on in my life. I can't put down what I really feel, 'cos if I do, I'll probably lose some of my friends in the process. I don't know how many people are reading my blog, or who, for that matter. Maybe you, the one reading my blog now, are one of the people I don't want to read my blog, and yet, somehow, I don't know how, you managed to find it. Or maybe I gave my blog url to you, but now I regret doing so, because something involving you happened to me, and I can't put it down into my blog, because your feelings will be hurt.

If you were my close friend, I wouldn't bother about your feelings being hurt, because I know we would've talked it out and everything would be fine. But if you're just an acquaintance, someone I just say hi and bye to in school, things will be different. And since I treasure your friendship, I can't really say much in my blog.

That being said, should you be thankful 'cos I treasure your friendship enough not to say anything hurtful? Or should you be upset 'cos I may be potentially keeping something from you?

Makes me wanna change my blog url, but if I do, you would know then, that I was talking about you all along, rite? Some people might say "Then make your blog private lah! Liddat people won't be able to read liao wat..."

But the reason I wanna blog is because I want to let my friends know how I feel. I want someone to comfort me when I'm sad. I want someone to curse and swear at someone I'm angry at, just to make me feel better. I just wanna know that there's someone on my side, that I'm not alone.

I miss the Blogspot Gang. I used to blog specially for them, and my chatterbox would be filled with all our crap. But now we're busy with our own lives and our blogs, and we've grown apart. I don't even think we love EG as much now.

I just packed my room just now (still am, actually) and I saw all my old EG stuff and I suddenly missed them alot. I wanted to pop their CD into my stereo and sing along to every single song, relish the fact that I knew every single word to every single song. I miss how happy I would get whenever they were in Singapore, the withdrawal symptoms that me, Jin, Tanleen, and later Beak would get whenever they left. I miss squealing whenever I thought they looked at us, whenever they waved in our direction. And I'll NEVER forget Gu-Ni winking at Jin and I. We almost died (and I still think we can when we think about it) when he did that. I miss chasing them!

I miss Toro. I miss seeing 5 people dancing. 4 people is just too weird a formation. I miss seeing one cuckoo dancing weirdly while the rest dance in sync. I miss laughing at him when he's dancing. I miss laughing at him whenever he does something stupid (which is all the time). I miss laughing at Ahdi flapping his arms at their concert. I miss hearing Toro's 本人. I miss hearing the unique quality of his voice.

Maybe it's time I start thinking about what I should do about this blog.