It's so unfair. Why do I have to be the one sacrificing?

You wanna have the BMR meeting on Thursday, but I can't, 'cos I'm going out with Alvin. I can't cancel on him, not bcos it's Alvin, but bcos my principles don't allow me to. I'd arranged with him earlier than you (you only decided last nite) that I'd go out with him and God knows how much I've been looking forward to seeing him, since I haven't seen him for days.

I refuse to pangseh people whom I've already set a date with. It's not fair to them. I used to do that, and I realised that my priorities were all wrong. So why can't you understand that I have my principles?

And when I suggested today, you said no, 'cos Keng Tzu has to accompany her mom to the hospital. Don't tell me that it's right that I should be the one cancelling, 'cos it's only Alvin. It's not right. We both can't make it on different days, 'cos of personal reasons, but why should I be the one to sacrifice Thursday and cancel on him? Why can't Keng Tzu just come and join us after she accompanies her mom?

Is it because I haven't showed up for other meetings, that's why you think it's alright to leave me out of future meetings? I already tried my best to turn up for as many meetings as possible, but I have work! You people aren't the ones working to support yourself, you know. And if you go out into the working world, you'd know that it's not that easy to "cancel your shift lah", as everyone always says. What kind of impression would that leave on your boss?

And worse still, you didn't even tell me that you were holding meetings. If I hadn't come early to school to do research, I wouldn't have found out about the meeting that you guys had arranged.

It's not fair. It's really not fair. It's not that I care about the peer appraisal shit, 'cos that's only 10%. What I care about is that I want to contribute to the group, to know that when we've handed up the assignment, I made a significant contribution to make the project better. But none of you seem to understand that. And the 2 people whom I thought were my good friends seem to be the one backstabbing me. WTF.

Ok, since you want me to work alone, I'll think of as many survey questions as I can and throw them all at you. This is the work that I've come up with, feel free to use it. It'll still amount to the same anyway, whether I'm at the meeting or not.

By the way, THERE'S THE WHOLE OF NEXT WEEK TO ARRANGE A MEETING, SO I DON'T SEE WHY WE HAVE TO HOLD IT ON THURSDAY! Are you biased against me or what?