I wish so hard that this is all a joke, but now I know it's not.

Can you believe that I'm breaking my more-than-a-year-long blogging hiatus for you? You must be am chio-ing like nobody's business, at having so many people turning up for your wake, and now my broken hiatus for you.

Ah Lam, just 3 years of knowing you in SU just isn't enough. I wish I had more chances to talk to you. I miss your smiles. I miss your laughter. I can't stand knowing you won't be around at our future gatherings anymore.

You know how the Stupong always makes so many faux pas, and I bet you'll laugh your 大头 off up there when you see me asking where you are at our future gatherings. So! That's why I asked Jodin and Alan to remind me not to shoot my mouth off at the start of anything. Wish me luck! =)

I can't stand looking at our picture. It hurts so bad, do you know that? I wonder when the truth will finally sink in. But you'll always live on in our hearts, for now, and forever more. As in the letter I wrote to you: "This isn't goodbye." It never will be.